“Welcome HOME”, this was what God whispered to me last 2 weeks during service. It was great to be connected with God’s people again. I am not doing so well lately but God’s grace is enough for me to go through everyday, good or bad. I have been thinking how to summarize my four and half year’s life in KL for 2 months, what I should expect from this year and year ahead, and most importantly, I am looking for a job right now. GREAT!
With all the questions in my head, I started to move on my own, rather than asking God what I should do. Strange isn’t it? I trust God, with my own understanding. Tell you, I do that all the time. I am not proud of it, but that shows I am moving away from God, and God is trying to hold me back into His arms again. Guess what, He did~ He always does. Amazing right?
For the past four and half years I was learning how to find myself, but now God is telling how to be myself. It is a whole new different aspect and of course, a lot more good and bad are coming on my way. How am I supposed to know what to do, how to do, where to do. God is putting people in my life to teach me lessons. Whether I like it or not, I have to deal with it, I have to figure out what to do, and one most important thing, I must ACT! I must put my words into actions. It is not easy all the times but when I finally make the first move, the rest is easier than I thought. Even if it doesn’t, I know who to turn to. I don’t have to be perfect for everybody, but I must do something so that people know that I am willing to learn and make mistakes, I am responsible for my own decision and I am willing to ask for help if I can’t make it. I will be hearing nasty words, rejections or something worst than that, but I am able to take them all and still work the best out of it. I will wipe my tears and move on. I am willing to apologize, learn the lesson and let go.
God wants a broken heart, that’s you and me. I am not at my best situation right now but I always know that God’s grace is enough for me to move on. I am not saying you can spit bad words on me and I would feel nothing because no one likes that. But I know my focus is not on the negative side, but on God. People can crush me, sometimes my spirit but not His plan for me. I can be very fragile, but my God is strong. And you, Mr.GIANT, cannot defeat my Heavenly Father because somehow He is able to make me get back on my feet and move on. It is not about me, but Him. This is my God. And I want you to know Him and welcome Him into your life. Amen.
Sounds a little heavy, but anyway, Chinese New year is around the corner, wishing all of you a Happy Prosperous Chinese New Year. Enjoy.
